Reflection, Learning, Thankful, Still Crafting

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It’s almost a year since England entered it’s first Covid19 lockdown, a year since most of us really became aware of this dreadful virus, a year since our own little worlds were disturbed and life as we knew it changed. I think back to the beginning when I felt so scared, when daily news reports made me cry easily, so many people started catching Covid19, hundreds, thousands being hospitalised or sadly passed away, the number of predicted sufferers perhaps wasn’t a mistake after all. The medical staff and hospitals struggled to cope. The government seemed unprepared. So much despair. There seemed no light at the end of the tunnel. I gathered close those important to me. I nurtured friendships by phone, briefly meeting but outside only. We became kinder to one another. I washed my hands excessively, I cleaned more than usual, when anything arrived in the mail I worried it would bring unwelcome germs.

Now the threat is still there but with the vaccines offered it is in decline, not gone away, just in decline. I still watch the news. I am still shocked. I am still worried about the future but there is lot less panic. It is a matter of time to see and experience the next step. I yearn to travel further than my own doorstep.

Personally, there are various things I have learned during the last year and some of these I am so grateful for. Family I gathered close have remained close. Most friendships nurtured remain steadfast or stronger (who could ever have predicted our increased use of social media and video conferencing?). We are all much kinder to each other. I didn’t realise we took each other for granted so often. Saying ‘I love you’ is more important than ever. Saying ‘how are you?’ and listening is equally imperative. Some relationships fell apart but maybe they did so for real reasons. Perhaps they would have naturally fallen away by now. I hope those people found solace and companionship elsewhere.

I used escapism as a way of coping. I read a lot more. I watched an awful lot of mindless tv (and lots of not so mindless too). For some time I crafted a lot more. I started projects, I planned more projects and I finished more projects. I am still reading, tv-watching and crafting although the urge to craft and the ability to finish is diminishing. If anything gets a little awry then it is put to one side to tackle another time. I am not beating myself up if something doesn’t quite go to plan on the craft table. I do not worry that there might not be time to ever finish it. I hadn’t clocked that perhaps I was worried I’d run out of time.

For example, this green sparkly top started in January doesn’t seem so urgent right now. It sits here with a lifeline stitched through each arm ready to be cut and the cuffs reknit. A new pile of yarn calls to me, a new project to plan, something easy to start not something difficult to work out. However, I did finish this hot water bottle cover. During one very cold night recently my existing hot water bottle split, soaked my feet and the bed (luckily the water was tepid by then). I had to replace it and gave the new bottle a new cover with some leftover fleece fabric. Since then it’s not actually been cold enough to need a hot water bottle at night!

Ending this post with a cow hottie bottle. I named her Daisy and she makes me smile!

11 thoughts on “Reflection, Learning, Thankful, Still Crafting

    quiteayarnblog said:
    March 12, 2021 at 6:07 am

    Who would have thought at this time last year that this is where we would be now? It has been a really strange time and terrible in many ways, but hopefully we are at the beginning of the end of it!

      tinaor responded:
      March 13, 2021 at 2:01 pm

      Let’s hope the ‘road map’ goes to plan though I still am not keen to book even a meal out yet in case the world disappoints. Today, out for a stroll in woods, yet again I saw several groups of people so obviously not from the same household – I sincerely hope the mixing of people doesn’t mean the disease spreads again and we are set back weeks or months!

        quiteayarnblog said:
        March 14, 2021 at 8:19 am

        Yes, let’s hope that this progress from here!

    knittingjane said:
    March 14, 2021 at 6:13 pm

    Hot water bottles are so comforting and covered even more so 😊
    The last 12 months have been awful but have certainly put priorities into perspective – family and friends first. And must admit have next to no skin left on my hands from all the handwashing 🖑👋

      tinaor responded:
      March 15, 2021 at 3:10 pm

      True, I love a hot water bottle but a couple of friends were amazed I still have ‘old fashioned’ ones and not just microwaved bags of beans to use. Ditto re all the handwashing! Someone’s making a lot of money out of selling handwashing products and handcreams to make our hands better !

    Olivia said:
    March 15, 2021 at 12:30 pm

    It has been a horrible year and since I have a lot of children spread all over the country I have a lot of craziness in my family and that really came out. The one thing I’m grateful for is I bought two puppies, Korgis, just before the pandemic hit. They don’t disagree with my political view,They require a lot of my concentration and attention, and they will constantly love me regardless of how good or bad the day is. Today I get my first vaccine and I can’t tell you how grateful I am that I have made it this far. Yes it’s been quite a year.

      tinaor responded:
      March 15, 2021 at 3:12 pm

      It has been a horrible year. I hope you can get together with family one day soon. Nice to hear you are loving your new pets. We have 2 cats and they are very affectionate, have become more so during the pandemic when we are all in the house all the time. They will miss my husband and son if/when they go back to working outside the home. I hope the vaccine goes well – it’s a light at the end of the tunnel ! Fab !

    restlessjo said:
    March 16, 2021 at 6:30 pm

    I offered a friend a bed for the night last December and was mortified when the hot water bottle I so thoughtfully provided burst on her! I haven’t bought another 😦

      tinaor responded:
      March 18, 2021 at 2:19 pm

      Oh my!!!! I can imagine how you felt. A few years ago we had friends to stay in France for New Year. Being a little chilly we’d armed the bed with hotties. The friends loved it, they did say they hadn’t used a hottie for yonks, mind you!

    tierneycreates: a fusion of textiles and smiles said:
    March 18, 2021 at 4:07 am

    I appreciate reading your insights and experiences. I could relate to your initial feelings early in the pandemic, it is so strange how I just got used to it and adjusted. I did a lot of escapism also and I am so happy I am a crafter as that helped too. Of course somedays you just do not want to get out of bed and do anything! I like your new hot water bottle cover, sorry you had a little disaster with your previous one!

      tinaor responded:
      March 18, 2021 at 2:17 pm

      Thank you tierneycreates. It is strange how we’ve got used to it all. Now I am starting worrying about what it’s going to be like ‘going back’ ! To normal, that is. I fancy a different kind of ‘normal’, definitely I am used to a slower pace of life in the home. Husband and son both working at home, no stressful commuting for them, especially the husband who usually travels the world in his job – I don’t miss him getting ready to fly out of the door early hours to catch a train or a plane. I think he has really appreciated the slower start to the days too. Thanks too for the empathy with my hot water bottle disaster! It reminded me very much of when I was a little girl and the same thing happened!

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