Today should have been a different day

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I should have been having surgery today. It was postponed in this current crisis. I totally understand why it’s not going ahead. I am glad not to have to risk being in a hospital perhaps rife with coronavirus and staff over stretched. I am glad not to have to face recovery without visitors coming in to cheer me up. I am glad I don’t have some life threatening condition that has to be ignored.

However, I am also a little sad. I am sad that this week isn’t happening the way I’d planned. I am sad that the recuperation at home with my husband to hand isn’t going to happen, although my husband is actually at home and working. I am sad that the mid term future might mean a holiday cancelled, surgery rebooked, help at hand different than expected. I am sad that my life will not change for several months, my condition won’t be fixed for a while.

I needed to say all this but I am fine. As the day progresses I shall craft a little, spend time with family, thank my lucky stars we are all safe. These few weeks have made me value some things a lot more.

It is perfectly acceptable to admit if you aren’t happy about everything. I am a woman, with many female friends, locked down in a house with a husband and grown up son. I know I, and friends too, use each other for sounding boards, to as I like to say ‘put the world to rights’. We are all in acceptance of what is going on right now and look forward to life after Corona and what it brings us, even if life is a little different from before.

So hopefully over the next few days they’ll be more posts with photos of knits and sewing projects, just maybe not today. Today there’s just a selection of needles ready to be donated to a second hand shop. One tiny part of my sorting out my craft stash!

13 thoughts on “Today should have been a different day

    Dartmoor Yarns said:
    April 29, 2020 at 10:44 am

    I’m sorry to hear your surgery has been cancelled, but glad it’s not life threatening. I think you’re right, however much we understand the situation, however much we know there are many worse off than us,we should still say when we’re unhappy.

    ReginaMary said:
    April 29, 2020 at 2:59 pm

    It is perfectly ok, and understandable to be sad about those things. I hope you have sunny days ahead. Just know that we are here to listen no matter what. xoxo Regina

      tinaor responded:
      April 29, 2020 at 6:37 pm

      Appreciated. x

    knittingjane said:
    April 29, 2020 at 4:24 pm

    It is really important to say it how it is! Much healthier than bottling it up. Sending you a virtual hug ❤

      tinaor responded:
      April 29, 2020 at 6:38 pm

      Thank you. Virtual hug received warmly. I felt like I was a moaning minnie earlier – the day panned out well eventually

    tierneycreates said:
    April 29, 2020 at 4:52 pm

    Sorry you are sad and send you warm thoughts!
    Happy craft stash sorting and hang in there 🙂

      tinaor responded:
      April 29, 2020 at 6:42 pm

      Thank you. Accepted warmly. I visited my craft stash and it gave me a boost.

    handmadeknits said:
    April 29, 2020 at 5:23 pm

    Well it’s OK to feel sad or frustrated 😊❤️

    quiteayarnblog said:
    April 30, 2020 at 3:27 pm

    So sorry your surgery was postponed! Even when we know things like this happen for good reasons, it is still disappointing. It’s OK to not be OK with things! Virtual hugs to you!

      tinaor responded:
      May 1, 2020 at 8:50 am

      Thank you. I agree. I am keeping in touch with friends who are in lockdown living alone – making sure to keep in regular touch as some who I know don’t like to admit how unhappy this is making them. This lockdown is definitely making me appreciate the things around that we’ve all been taking for granted, family included.

    saltwaterhillknits said:
    May 1, 2020 at 2:46 pm

    There’s lots to be sad about these days, specifically (like with your planned surgery and vacation) and in general (like the over arching uncertainty and fear of this global pandemic). As you say, giving ourselves permission to express the loss and sadness is positive and healthy. Acknowledging and feeling difficult/painful emotions is therapeutic in itself. Onward!

    cindamackinnon said:
    May 17, 2020 at 5:22 pm

    You’re lucky to have your craft talent just now. Hope you can have your surgery soon – maybe while your husband is still home.

      tinaor responded:
      May 19, 2020 at 11:17 am

      Thank you – yes I see making things as a blessing. I hope for surgery soon – as long as everything around feels safe. My husband had minor surgery himself a week before lockdown – both falling apart! – in a way I wish I’d had mine first then it would have been ideal.

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