I took a step back as the calendar changed to 2015. I didn’t launch head long into making huge changes or decisions. I am too aware of years gone past where I have made promises to myself that were either impossible to keep or just petered out after a few days or weeks.
Therefore there was no blog post directly on 1st January, no New Years Resolutions as such, although it did make me muse about the future. I got to thinking about something an old work colleague said when I was quite young. I didn’t ‘get it’ at the time, in fact I thought he was just being tight. St Valentine’s Day was approaching and I was anticipating dinner out with a fairly new boyfriend. My colleague said St Valentine’s Day was an excuse for retailers and restaurants to bump up their prices and overcharge everybody. He also said the media encouraged us to make sure we said ‘I Love You’ on that one day whereas he said it to his wife everyday (lucky wife!). I wondered why he questioned being told to say ‘I Love You’ at all.
I guess you can possibly say similar rules apply to New Year’s Eve celebrations. Don’t get me wrong here. I am not bah humbug at all about New Year. I love New Year! I have very happy memories of being proposed to and accepting as one year turned into another. I have great memories of parties and other celebrations with friends here and abroad as clocks changed. However, it is so true that many restaurants charge a lot extra to eat out on 31st December, many supermarkets bring out ‘special’ food (sometimes more expensive too) for the same date. Yes, you have to factor in paying staff, keeping venues open out of hours, but is it really overdone these days? And, why is it that people take this date to review the past year and make changes? Why don’t we do it on May 3rd, September 7th or any other date? Historically it was when the calendar was reset in the 1500’s but mostly nowadays it revolves around making keep fit decisions rather than being farmers and being aware of the seasons!
I had been thinking I was barely keeping my head above water for some time. November became rather a blur. I had been working hard, newish job, lots to learn. I had been trying to juggle home life, being a good wife and mother. I was struggling to keep healthy and to keep off the pounds I had lost in the past 18 months. It all seemed to work but I was exhausted and not enjoying most things. The seeds of change were planted in November, which did mean a change of working hours before Christmas, for the better. December, amongst the juggling, obligatory family stuff took place. As always we came out of Christmas feeling we had done our bit for the season but this year I felt flat and pushed and pulled every which way.
So, between Christmas and New Year I started to take stock of my life at ‘the moment’, not particularly long term but ‘for now’. I am part of an online knitting forum but had taken on board more commitment on it for three years. I decided to give that up, enjoy some time for me on the forum. I didn’t want to dash fellow knitters hopes but had to put myself first this time and it feels good that I have. Secondly, I decided to try and sell some of my knitted things again. There was an opportunity proposed to me in Spring 2014, I hadn’t taken it up but I have done so now. It is very casual but in a week I have sold 25% of my items – which to me is good news. I still dash from day to day but sometimes consciously stop and ‘smell the roses’. For example, on the train platform the other day I was surrounded by fellow commuters, six of which in the near vicinity were wearing headphones. They all seemed unaware of their surrounding. I stood waiting for the train, basking in the sunshine streaming down upon us, just taking stock of the start of the day and felt calm and relaxed when the train arrived.
A couple of pics just for show off ! A trip to Greenwich in London pre Christmas. A lovely snap of The Cutty Sark. Well worth a visit if you are up that way.